Eulogy

Walang dumadating na oras sa buhay ng isang tao na masasabi nyang handa na syang magpaalam sa minamahal nya sa buhay. Lahat ng tao dito kilala si mommy dahil sa napakalaki nyang puso. para kay mommy, walang mahirap, walang mayaman, walang lamang kahit kanino, lahat magkakapantay. lahat ng tao kinakikitaan nya ng kabutihan. kung kaya naman madali siyang natututunang mahalin ng mga tao sa paligid nya. Si mommy na nagbibigay liwanag sa lahat ng tao at sa unang kita nyo ng kanyang ngiti lahat ng problema nyo ay tila nawawala. At gusto ni mommy laging nakangiti kahit madaming hinaharap na problema sa araw-araw. Si mommy na mapagbigay sa lahat ng tao at kahit kailan wala siyang pingdamot na khit ano. maswerte kaming mga apo nya dahil naramdaman namin lahat ng pagmamahal niya. sa sarili nyang mga pamamaraan ay napalaki nya kami na maging katulad nya, mabait, mapagbigay masiyahin at higit sa lahat may takot sa diyos. wala kaming maalalang pagkakataon na hindi nya kami sinuportahan, mula sa unang hakbang hanggang sa araw na ikasal at nagkaroon na kami ng mga sariling pamilya. Mommy, salamat sa lahat ng sakripisyo mo para sa amin, sa walang katapusan na pagmamahal sa amin, at sa pagsupporta. lagi kayong nandyan palagi para gabayan kami sa bawat hakbang ng aming buhay. malungkot man kami ngayon dahil iniwan mo na kami ay alam namin andito ka lagi sa tabi ng bawat isa sa amin patuloy pa din gagabay sa kung ano man ang dumating. alam namin masaya ka na dyan sa langit kasama si daddy at gusto mo din masaya kami dito. mahirap, pero gagawin namin para sayo. maswerte ang langit dahil magkakaron sila ng mommy na tulad mo. hinding hindi ka namin makakalimutan at araw araw ka namin maaalala. Nandito ka palgi sa aming puso at isipan. mahal na mahal ka namin mommy at mamimiss ka naming lahat. paalam sa ngayon, hanggang sa magkita tayo muli.. 

-Sa lahat ng apo

-RJM<3

You'll always be in my heart Mommy, I love you!

Hndi ko alam kung paano ko uumpisahan to.. Sobrang sakit para sa akin dahil hanggang ngayon hindi ko pa din matanggap na wla na ang pinkamamahal kong lola. Pinapakita ko sa ibang tao at pinipilit ngumiti sa harapan nla pro ang totoo, sobrang sobra akong dinudurgo sa loob. Ang sakit dahil, hindi man lang ako makakauwi sa araw ng libing niya. Hindi ko alam gagwin ko at hindi ako mpakale dto sa america. Sna magkalapit na lang ang america at pilipinas.. Gustong-gusto ko makita ang mommy ko, bago siya dalhin sa huling hantungan.. Kahit na sa skype ko lng nkkita, iba pa din ung nandun ako. Gusto ko, makita at nandun ako ng personal. Yun na lang tlga ung wish ko pra sa birthday ko na, makasama ako sa paghatid sa knya sa araw ng birthday ko. Pro alam ko naman na, malabo mangyri un.. Hindi ko inaakala na, yung huling uwi namin nung March, un na ung huli ko siya makkita, makakasama, mayayakap, mahahalikan at masasabhin ng I love you Mommy. Yun na yta ung pinakamasayang huling uwi namin, dahil nagkakasama lahat ng magkakapatid cla papa, tita remy tito rey, tita rose, tita ruby, tito george at tito olan. Walang cnu man ang gusto ang mwala ang pinkamamahal nila sa buhay. Ang dami-dami kong pang gustong sabhin sau mommy tapos di ba nagpromise ako sau babalik ako ulit sa pilipinas at pipilitin ko cla mama na mag-aral dyan at sa bhay mo ako titira. Kaso hindi ako natuloy magcollege sa pilipinas, pero sinabi ko sa sarili ko hndi ko sisirain ung promise ko at babalik ako sa baksyon ko para mas mahaba ung panahon ko pra mkasama ko si mommy at mga pinsan ko. Alam mo ba mommy yung pagplano ko na umuwi next year sa  pilipinas may gusto na akong ipakilala sayo, yung mtgal mo ng pinapangarap para sa akin ang lalaking magmamahal sa akin ng sobra at hindi ako sasaktan. Naalala ko noon, pagtumtwag kami dyan sa pilipinas, lagi mong tinatanong "kelan ka ba mgbboyfriend nel? akong bahala sayo, alam mo naman si mommy konsitadora!" Mommy, mamimiss ko kayo sobrang sobra! Paguwi ko sa may, iba na wala na yung lola ko na alagang-alaga kami na lagi kming tinatanong "Ano gusto mong ulam nel? Kaldereta, yung maanghang o Tocino?" Walang patid sa pagtanong na anong gusto namin kainin, lalo na pag-meryenda na, "Anong gusto mo nel, egg pie o lugaw?" Kahit ano ggawin ni mommy para sa amin, makita lang kmeng msaya.. Kaya lahat ng tao, mahal na mahal cya eh kasi siya na yata ang pinakamabait na tao na makikilala mo. Lahat sa kanya, pantay-pantay at lagi mo syang mkkitang nakangiti. Si mommy na mapagbigay at mapagmahal.. Mamimiss ko yung lagi mo akong kinkwentuhan sa mga nangyri sau umpisa nung bata ka hnggang sa nagpakasal kayo ni daddy. Mamimiss ko yung pagsinsabhin nyo ako ng I love you nel! Yung mga mahihigpit mong yakap mamimiss ko din. Mommy, hindi ko po babaliin ang promise ko sa inyo uuwi po ako ng may para makita ko po kayo pero ngayon ksama nyo na si daddy na dadalawin ko. Hayy.. :'( Sana isa na lang tong msamang panaginip, pero kailangan kong tanggapin. Alam ko magagalit kau sa akin mommy, kse malungkot ako pero alam mo naman na pinipilit ko maging msaya pra sa inyo. Baka, sabhin nyo lang ako ng "anak ng damokal ka!" pati din cla ate joy, ate pepot at cla manel pati cla papa, tita remy. Kayo ang pinakamasayahing lola namin! Kaya nga mana kami sa inyo mommy eh, wala din kme ginwa kung hindi tumwa ng tumwa at cympre magpose ng magpose sa mga pictures. Yun ung signature ng mga Morales di ba? Mga baliw lang! Wag po kaung magalala mommy, onti-onti ko din matatanggap pero hndi pa ngayon. Alam ko kung gaano ka kasaya ngayon kasi, magkasama na kayo ni daddy tyka alam namin na okay ka na at hindi ka na nahihirapan. MAHAL NA MAHAL KO PO KAYO MOMMY AT MAMIMISS KO PO KAYO SOBRANG SOBRA! AT LAGI KAYONG NASA ISIPAN KO AT SA PUSO KO. May you rest in peace mommy. :'*

-RJM<3

Mommy Mary Morales ♥♥♥

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hD0DgX28xnE

-RJM<3

My Precious Room ♥

Since I'm bored and I didn't work for 2 days, I decided to share my precious room!! :) My room would be filled with pictures and hello kitty. Most of my stuff are pink, blue and red (i guess). Hahahaha. I know! I know! Too much girly!! Oh well, here it is..

Bubble gum machine, Water dispenser,

Hello kitty, Panda, Zebra dog, Minion, 

Monster doll, Teddy bear, Precious Moments Collection

and 

Katy Perry posters.

What I call my SCRAPCLOSET! :)) 

Pictures with the people I love the most. ♥♥♥

Gotta love my bed!! ;) 

Care bears, Heart pillow, 

Domo (Conan), Hello Kitty pillow

and 

Pictures of me in the wall. 

You can never ever forget the pink curtains! :))

Flower lights, Mini hello kitty fridge, 

Hello kitty clock, Hello kitty coasters, 

and Mini alter.

Oh! By the way, RJ stands for Ramona Janel. Yuppp! My name! ;)

-RJM<3

Cheers to her!! :)

Saying a happy birthday to my dearest sister. :) She would be the best sister, everrr!! You know how much I love you and I'm always here for you. (You're assistant fake nurse! Hahaha.) Thank you for everything! :)

 A massage gift card from me 

and a pf changs gift card from mama. 

Lastly!! She got a macbook pro from kuya. :D 

Ikaw na! Kayo na talaga! Hahaha. 

You deserve it ate. <3

-RJM<3

Y and P equals L.

This is it!! Waaaaaaahhhhhhh! Today is my beb's birthday! :) Super duper ultimate to the extreme to the max excited na ako makuha niya yung gift ko para sa kanya!! Super thanks to my friends Abby, Aly and Dwight for helping me. :D Sana magustuhan niya! :''> Gusto ko makita yung reaction niya, I swear!! Hahahaha.

Mahal na mahal na mahal kita! Sobra!

Happy Birthday Tiger ko! :*

RJM<3

Starstruckk

2 days in wisconsin with my family was... PRICELESS! I had mucho fun with them even though, we didn't stayed longer. Ohhh, well!!

(my 1st time driving from dp to wisconsin! hollarrr! hahaha.)

(I love this game!! I got way too excited when I saw it!

Cuz this game was only in the philippines "timezone'')

(Being dorks with them! ;])

(Me and my sissy. :*)

(Ofcourse! Deff. the highlight of this trip because

my mom, went with us in the hurricane slide and it was

way too high and scary. Ohhh mom, that's why

I love you!! you're crazy like me! Hahahaha.)

(Jet boat with broo!!)

(Tearssss! Last day in wisconsin.)

(Lastly, beating my brother in basketball!! WINNING! :D

He got 120 and I got 215! I just love basketball, that's all.)

Imma' miss wisconsin yo! yo! yo! :))))

RJM<3

If I had a flower for every time I thought of you, I could walk in my garden forever.

Pagkatapos ng graduation ko, lumapit sa akin ang ate ko at binigyan ako ng bouquet ng flowers. Sobrang natuwa ako kasi, gustong gusto kong nakakatanggap ng flowers. Tapos, biglang lumapit sa akin yung kapatid ko na si miguel at may hawak din siyang bouquet ng flowers. Habang papalapit sa akin si miguel, pinagmamasdan ko yung flowers dahil sobrang ganda at favorite color ko pa pink. Nung inabot na sa akin ng kapatid ko yung flowers tinanong ko siya kung kanino galing at ang nasa isip ko, ang sasabihin sa akin ni miguel ay galing ito kay mama at papa. Biglang nagsalita si miguel, "Galing to kay... kay..!" Nakalimutan niya yung pangalan at na sabi niya na, "Galing to sa boyfriend mo!" Hindi ako makapagsalita at nashock ako parang tumigil yung mga tao nasa paligid ko. Kala ko niloloko ako ng kapatid ko at sinabi sa akin ulit ng ate ko na, "Oo totoo na galing yan kay benedict." Hindi ko na napigilan yung sarili ko na umiyak at niyakap ko si kuya andrew. (kahit pinagtatawanan ako nila kuya at miguel!) Tinanong ko ang ate ko ng paulit-ulit na, "Paano nangyari to?" Sinabi niya sa akin na nag-email sa kanya yung pinsan ko na si jessa at nakisuyo kay ate. (mga magkakasabwat!) Lumapit sa akin si alyssa at dwight at nagtataka sila, kung bakit ako umiiyak at sabi ko sa kanila dahil kay bene. Naconfuse sila nung una, tapos nung sinabi ko sa kanila dahil binigyan niya ako ng flowers nagulat din sila. Ang lungkot kasi lalo ko siyang namiss na sana kasama ko siya ngayon.. at the same time masaya ako kasi kahit wala siya dito physically sa tabi ko, naparamdam niya sa akin na nandito siya at, palagi siyang nandito sa puso ko. Hindi ko talaga to ineexpect! Sobrang thankful ako kay benedict dahil, lahat gagawin niya para lang mapasaya niya ako at maiparamdam sa akin na mahal na mahal niya ako. Thank you beb ko!! Lagi mong tatandaan na mahal na mahal na mahal kita! Forever!!

          (Iyakin bata! Hahahaha.)

(Sila nakasmile, eh ako iyak ng iyak!)

(Yan tuloy mugto mata! hahahaha.)

(Thank you for everything! I love you so much!!)

-RJM<3

A new chapter awaits..

(Thumbs up for me! hehehe.)

(Finally got my diploma.)

(Yeah rah, for maine west high!!!)

(thankful to have you guys as my friends!)

(she's been my best friend since 8th grade til now!)

(Lastly, I'm thankful for my family! They were there for me since day 1. I love you ma, pa, ate, migs and kuya andrew!)

       I still can't believe that I already graduated from high school! Time flies way too fast, I wish I can hit the pause button and be a high school student forever! (Forever young!!) Hahaha. I can say that, HIGH SCHOOL will always be the best!!! As my high school chapter closes there's going to be a new chapter.. My college chapter! This is going to be bigger and better, meeting new people, facing the reality and harder tasks. I'm looking forward for it even though I'm kinda scared for it. Yikes!! But I know for a fact that, I can get through with this new chapter of my life. ;) 

-RJM<3

Love wasn't in my vocabulary anymore until, you came into my life. :)

What is love? Hhhhmmm.. That was a big question mark for me! Every time I hear the word "LOVE" I would always say "Ewwww, Yuck or Get a life.'' I was so bitter when it comes to love and boys! I even said to myself that, I could never see myself falling in love again. I also said to myself that, I would be a nun when I grow up. I really thought that my heart had turned into a stone but, everything changed when this guy came into my life. ;)

He's my one and only guy best friend and since, he was a year older than me I call him my "Kuya ccp." We would always IM each other almost every weekend and we can talk about anything! I mean, everything! We're just so random and we always make fun of each other. Whether we're happy or sad, we always got each others back. If he laughs then I would also laugh but, when he cries then I would also cry with him. Every time we have a problem, we just listen to each other and give some advices and try to cheer each other up. Hey! That's what best friend are for, right? Just being silly, making fun of each other and laughing all the time. At first, I didn't wanted to admit it to myself that I was already falling for him. I was so indenial because I was so scared to open my heart again. I'm scared that I would get hurt again and I didn't want to get hurt anymore. But this man did everything to make me believe that, the word love exists. It's been a long time since I felt that I was safe, protected and no one can hurt me. He never fails to make me smile and every single day he would always say to me how much he loves me. :')

 He's already tired from school and watching over their bakery but still, try his best to stay up just to talk to me. But.. he falls asleep! I would never get mad at him for that, I actually love watching him sleep. Just seeing him, it makes me already happy. You've already done so much sacrifice for me and from the smallest to the biggest efforts that you've made. I just.. Couldn't ask for more! I'm so lucky to have you as my best friend and my boyfriend! And I'm the happiest girl in the whole world!! Thank you for making me happy. Thank you for being there beside me through the good times and the bad times. You've never left me and you're the main reason why I have this big smile on my face again. Thank you for everything! You have no idea how happy I am but I would be more happier if we're together right now. I promised you that, I would do everything so that we would be together again.

Happy 1st month to us, kuya ccp ko, kapatid ko, kapatiders ko, luv k 2, bene ko and beb ko!! I miss you so much and I love you so much!!

I LOVE YOU FOREVER AND ALWAYS AND TO INFINITY AND BEYOND! :*

27<3

-RJM<3

It's called.. HAPPINESS!

(P.I. 2012)

[Ito ang aking happiness. :) Sobrang mahal na mahal ko sila!!]

Isang buwan na ang nakakalipas ng umuwi ako sa pilipinas. Grabe! Ang bilis lang talaga ng panahon parang, kahapon lang nung dumating ako sa pilipinas. Yung 2 linggo na pagstay ko sa pilipinas, sobrang sinulit ko talaga kada segundo, kada minuto at kada oras na kasama ko ang pamilya ko at mga kaibigan ko. Wala akong inaksayang oras, gala dito gala doon. Hahahaha. Maraming salamat sa tawanan, iyakan, kwentuhan! Salamat din sa mga kaibigan ko na, kahit busy sila gumawa pa din sila ng paraan para makasama nila ako kahit saglit lang. Sobrang napasaya niyo ako ng bonggang-bongga! :D Miss na miss ko na kayong lahat. Babalik ako kagad mga mahal ko, super soon! 

-RJM<3

There's a blue sky waiting tomorrow.

Wooohoooooo! It's already March. Can you believe it?? It means.. Spring is coming!! Yay! So goodbye to the snow and crappy cold weather! ;) I just wanna share a couple of pictures that I edited. As you can see, every single one is more focused on the sky. I just love taking pictures when it comes to sky, it really makes me relax and just breath slowly every time I see the sky. It helps me to clear everything that I'm thinking. As days goes by, I really hope everything would be okay in my life. I'm still trying my best to cheer myself up even though, my situation right now is where I feel I've been pulled from both sides.

Hoping for a better day, tomorrow, next day, next month and next year.

-RJM<3

What makes you beautiful... WORLWIDE! ;)

Last night was just... AMAZING!! Including that it was my very 1st time to watch a concert. Yesterday was a happy day for me. When I got home, I couldn't stop smiling!!! It was CRAZYYYYY! My 2 favorite boy band were soooooooooooo good! And I also love how, they were just having fun with us and fooling around. I LOVE IT! :D I really wish that last night didn't end. I'm really hoping that 1D would come back here in chicago and, I would definitely get a VIP ticket this time. :D I took some pictures of 1D but it's not good cuz it was really dark and I was only using a digi cam, so I apologized for the bad quality. :)

the links for the videos,

I want- 1D

Moments- 1D

Use Somebody(cover)- 1D

More than this- 1D

What makes you beautiful- 1D

Big Time Rush- BTR

Superstar- BTR

Boyfriend- BTR

Music sounds better than u- BTR

City is ours- BTR

I had so much FUN LAST NIGHT!!! :D BTR AND 1D FOR LIFE!<3

P.S

-I'm listening to 1d and BTR right now. 1d and BTR feverrrrrrrrr! :))

-RJM<3

Merch!!

Binili ko kagabi. :D I'll be uploading the videos and a little pictures that I took last night.

Btr and 1D for life!!! <3

-RJM<3

V-day

First of all, I wanna greet everyone Happy Valentines Day! :) Whewww! A bittersweet valentine's day for me; well actually it's not really bitter nor sweet it's just in the middle. Hahahaha. Ano daw? Anyways, I love seeing couples in our hallway! It's either the girls are holding a rose in their hand or a teddy bear and then on the other hand they're holding their boyfriends hand. I find it cute but, there are moments that I kinda feel sad. Oh well, I try not to make it a big deal! Anyways.. I feel special because of my bestfriends, made my day! Lyso and Urvi gave me chocolates. I love them! I can say that, my valentine's day was special because of my bestfriends. 

-RJM<3

Rapunzel

Sorry for the face!! Hahahahaha. God! I miss my long-long hair. :| I was looking some old pictures and look I found this. But I'd rather have a short hair because, having a long hair doesn't look so good on me. Oh well!! And also, having a short hair makes me more younger. ;) 

-RJM<3

Godzilla to the rescue! ;)

Our first bucket list is to eat @ sushi station. Gahhhh, I just love their godzilla sushi! More bucket list to come!

(love it!! godzilla sushi!!)

(ready to eat my sushi, so hungry!)

(the loves. :])

(staking up plates! oh yeahh, we're a fatty! lmfao!)

(did you know that today is happy national chocolate cake day?)

-RJM<3